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Was happy with my bi today, tonight ! i hope i did made her happy too ! Seriously, i really do not know whether she's happy with me. Sometimes i will be doubting. Anyway, after drinking, met up with a small thingy. then came home, there was a war. Hais, sorry bi. You have to hear me complaining so many things. Whatever i have said, i hope you really listen, it's all from my bottom of my heart.

Bi, i really love you ! i really don't want to be a useless person anymore ! Though others may think that i have a wonderful family. But it ain't so "WONDERFUL" as they think. i have gone through so much, and i don't know when i will really break down. So many things to say about my family. i really hope you are understanding enough..

Many things in my life i do not have a chance to choose or do. And when i don't have a chance to do so, They will say i'm useless. Do i really seem so useless to them? I really wonder how many people out there understand how i feel. It really hurts deeply when she says, " YOU AIN"T MY SON ! FUCK OFF !" Maybe to her, this is nothing ! But to me ! FUCK ! IT MEANS ALOT ! Maybe i'm really a fucking useless guy. And maybe i should just let go.. What else can i say?

Dad, i'm sorry though you put so much hopes on me. i gave you nothing. SORRY ! i'm not that type that can study and all. SORRY !

Bi, i really hope you do what you said to me. I LOVE YOU

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